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As a child I religiously kept a diary. I wrote in it all my deepest fears, thoughts, secrets and documented my life in great detail. When times evolved, my diary became my LiveJournal, then a MySpace then my MSN live page and eventually I joined the book of faces rendering my diary useless.

In 2019, I want to get back into old habits. I want to use my blog to be more present in my day to day life, instead of just for the occasional post about clothing or products. I want to reconnect. Not only to myself but to you guys. I want to get to know you and in return I hope you will enjoy getting to know me.

2019 will be a busy year, I plan to travel lots, get back some semblance of normality and I want you guys to enjoy the good, the bad and the ugly with me.

I want to use this year to grow, in so many ways...hang on I have just scratched my forearm on a broken Thai Sweet Chilli crisp that I clearly dropped on my tummy earlier (don't judge me I'm lying here in the dark writing this to you...I totally just ate the culprit too. #wastenotwantnot). Apologies, I digress...I was talking about growth. I have had a hellish end to 2018 and I am ready to attack 2019 with gusto. Ewww there are crisp crumbs in my neck rolls, I would eat them too but they are mixed with Vicks vapour rub, so I will just leave those right there.

I'm not gonna make any grandiose resolutions which I know full well I won't keep but I will make a promise to myself to practice more self care and love so that I can get back to running on full steam but whilst I do that I need to look after my mental health too. I have taken a proper beating this year. I have been the lowest I have felt in a long long time and we all know that going back to Kat circa. 2012 would never end well.

Let's sum up my year just for those who don't know me well enough or those fake watcher types who just lurk in your "friends" list for shady, snakey purposes...

• Jan 2018 to Oct 2018 - I spent a great deal of the year being everywhere. I was crowned Ms International Curve in Oct 2017, so throughout my reigning year, I wanted to promote the pageant system in every possible way I could. I attended over 60 events, from red carpet to charity work. I literally threw my heart and soul into EVERY opportunity, I do not regret one second of it. I wish I could do it all over again.

• I took part in a campaign with Yours Clothing; #TakeThePledge where, Hollie of Pretty Big Butterflies, Laura of What Laura Loves and I stripped down to our pretty undies to be sketched live by some extremely talented artists.

•  I literally bore all in a daring interview for BBC Three called The Naked Truth. You guessed right...I was NAKED and no I don't mean like implied nudity, I was as starkers as the day I was front of the world.  It was quite a liberating experience, not gonna lie! If you haven't seen the show it's still available on YouTube so take a little look-see down below;

• As a result of the BBC Three documentary, I went on daytime TV to talk about it with two of my co-hosts, Jo & Sophie. We met Eammon & Ruth on ITV's This Morning.  If you missed it you can watch our interview right here. We also were interviewed on BBC Radio 5 Live.

• I was extremely lucky to be able to model for some amazing brands like Yours Clothing, Viva Voluptuous and Sierra Blu Fashion. I took part in catwalk fashion shows and I even hosted the Ms Curvaceous UK grand finals.

• I stripped down once again and then rolled my fat ass in gold glitter paint and frolicked through the fields with other glittery fat babes for #VivaGlitter 

• I launched my own project called "The Yes I Can Initiative".  Due to ill health the project had to be halted mid launch - but this will resume once I am back on my feet.

• I took on my own segment at local radio station Ridge Radio. 

• Towards the end of Oct 18 my health took a nosedive. I have lived with auto immune diseases for many years and my immune system gave up on me and as a result my body has really suffered this year. I'm not gonna go into detail regarding my health in this post because I'm gonna do a separate one about that soon as I feel that it deserves its own time to shine!

So as you can see I have been blessed with some amazing highs (although there seems to be a recurring naked theme going on here) but I have also struggled through some really harrowing events. Most of which none of you will know about. That's not because I haven't told anyone but because I am such a busy person and I do everything with a smile on my face, people assume everything is gravy! Truth is...what goes on behind the scenes is not always what people show on social media.

One thing you guys will very quickly learn about me is I hate to feel like I am a burden on others. I hate letting people down and as such I often over promise/over commit to my own detriment. I like to be there for others and be the one they can depend on, as a result it often means that I don't have anyone to lean on when I am struggling and this year...when I have needed it most I have found that a lot of the people that I have helped over the years don't have the time to return the sentiment. It's been eye opening to say the least. I've done a lot of soul searching and decluttering both my living spaces, head space and most importantly my friends lists from the toxic "friendships" that I had made along the way.

I have re-prioritised my life goals and made list upon list of what really matters to me and what I literally have zero fks left for in my fk budget!

I am making more time for ME.
I am focusing more on ME and those who matter to ME.
I am doing the things that make ME happy.
I am removing the things from my life that bring ME down.
I am #ReclaimingMyTime 

I would love if you guys would join me on this little adventure called "living" I plan to live my life to the fullest and I'm really looking forward to sharing it with you guys.

Keep in touch x

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